life.
Life just sucks right now. I’m told that I’m too negative but it just seems that when I think everything is going well, something just pulls the rug from under my feet. ALWAYS.
I don’t understand what it is about me that makes my life the way it is. Why can things not stay good? Why is it only for a little while?
I’m just tired of it. All I can think is what I’ve done that is so bad, so wrong that I don’t deserve some LASTING happiness.
About all I do online anymore is check my email, look at my myspace and facebook accounts and that is it. I just joined facebook so I have been getting into it but not getting much response from anyone there, so now I’m not too inclined to do much more on it. I don’t forward that many emails anymore to friends.
And I check all this stuff waiting for something in particular that never seems to come anymore.
I just feel really sad and hopeless right now, this second. Then in two hours I might feel hopeful again. What I want is to feel happy most of the time is all. Is that too much to ask? lol
I hope things turn around and are better for you.